June started off like a blast (the bad way)! The 'explosion' was too great, I was picking up the pieces as days went by.
Seriously June hasn't been a good month for me. No, I'm not talking about the children. With kids, its more joy and no tears for this month, or rather ever since motherhood was labeled on my forehead children are the source of my happiness.
Many of you know me well enough... I'm a happy person by nature, laughing loudly most of the time, giggling at almost every silly jokes, an easy target for anyone who wants to test their 'cheer-me-up' tricks.
So whenever something is bothering me, I'll have to trash it out, shout it out (verbally or not), repeat the 'unhappy' event over and over again (to different people of cos, if not who would still wanna be close to me) Before I could break loose from the negative ions.
... that's me.
But the 'problems' I faced in June *deep breath*, I can't share with anyone....
All I did was bury myself under the pillow and shout
"Arrggghhhh......"
At least my neighbours would not come knocking on my door....
So I did the 'No Title' post and the 'How Would "One" Feel?' post, which basically sums up my feelings...
Arrrrghhhhhhhh...... its irritating when you can't share and the people you can talk to are the co-CREATORS of the problems, who had already shut their ears; Who refused to talk about the issue anymore; who are not opening up to options either....
"Time will Heal", but that's for pain isn't it?
Now, I want to solve disputes, not pain.
Anyway, that sentence doesn't work very well on me either....
Ok, this post is getting nowhere.... I just wanna rant. Forgive me if I had given you a headache without the painkillers.
Tomorrow is July, a new month, may June and all its woes and tears and frustrations be gone as I flip the calendar..........
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Song Sharing Sunday - #24
Thank you Erin for sharing your golden find with me.... this is for you...
He is truly amazing!
He is truly amazing!
Every Song reminds me of a person, an event, a place, a smell, a taste....a secret, do you have a song to share today?
The Blower's Daughter - Damien Rice
And so it is
Just like you said it would be
Life goes easy on me
Most of the time
And so it is
The shorter story
No love, no glory
No hero in her skies
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
And so it is
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
And so it is
The colder water
The blower's daughter
The pupil in denial
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes off you
I can't take my eyes...
Did I say that I loathe you?
Did I say that I want to
Leave it all behind?
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you...
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind off you
I can't take my mind...
My mind...my mind...
'Til I find somebody new
(Mr Linky has been giving me problem. Hence I've decided to strip it completely)
So if you would like to join in the fun, leave a comment with your Song Sharing Sunday post's URL and don't forget to grab the meme's badge above using the codes provided and I'll hop over to 'listen'...
Friday, June 26, 2009
In Loving Memory of Michael Jackson
Over the years, he has changed. That's undeniable. Look at the 40seconds video of the 'smooth' change of his face from then till the day he died....
But I am not all against it, though I don't like the end result of all those plastic surgery, in between it all, there was a look which he had changed into that I really really like....
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The song that made me noticed him...
Beat It
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkGOiS75Lwk
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The song that made me saw the gentle side of him....
You Are Not Alone
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My favourite album of all times.....
The Thriller
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOj5H5W9zYo&feature=related
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His dance moves are legendary....
His and his alone to own....
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My favourite album cover....
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My favourite MTVs.....
Bad - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ACPsfcsg4ZE
Black or White - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVoJ6OO6lR4
Remember the Time - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_n7cftdkl0
Smooth Criminal - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVh7FL7-SQw
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Rest In Peace, Michael....
But I am not all against it, though I don't like the end result of all those plastic surgery, in between it all, there was a look which he had changed into that I really really like....
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The song that made me noticed him...
Beat It
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZkGOiS75Lwk
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The song that made me saw the gentle side of him....
You Are Not Alone
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My favourite album of all times.....
The Thriller
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hOj5H5W9zYo&feature=related
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His dance moves are legendary....
His and his alone to own....
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My favourite album cover....
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My favourite MTVs.....
Bad - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ACPsfcsg4ZE
Black or White - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YVoJ6OO6lR4
Remember the Time - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5_n7cftdkl0
Smooth Criminal - http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zVh7FL7-SQw
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Rest In Peace, Michael....
Michael Jackson Died
OMG!
This is too sudden.
I've always loved this man, no matter how many 'bad stuff' were said about him.
This is too sudden.
I've always loved this man, no matter how many 'bad stuff' were said about him.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
Song Sharing Sunday - #23
Every Song reminds me of a person, an event, a place, a smell, a taste....a secret, do you have a song to share today?
Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis
(Mr Linky has been giving me problem. Hence I've decided to strip it completely)
So if you would like to join in the fun, leave a comment with your Song Sharing Sunday post's URL and don't forget to grab the meme's badge above using the codes provided and I'll hop over to 'listen'...
Thursday, June 18, 2009
How Would "One" Feel?
How would "One" Feel?
When "one" bend down to wipe the shit off "two's" bum, because "two" has hands too short.
No 'thank you' said is fine for "one".
but slapped "one's" face with that shit and 'what a busybody you are' is just not right.
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The landlord gathered some seeds and said to the farmer: "Make them into 'money' trees"
Farmer did as told
He sowed the seeds
He watered the seedlings
He killed the pests
He fell in love with the plants which grew into big apple trees
Bearing juicy fruits, good enough to be sold in the market
Money came rolling in
the landlord enjoyed the rewards.
Over time,
the landlord picked other seeds
"These will bring fruits that are bigger and more valuable, but I don't have enough land, so uproot all those apple trees and plant these new seeds."
How would the Farmer feel?
"Yes, he is the landlord, I should obey."
"No, they are my 'blood and sweat', I will NOT give them up."
What should the Farmer do?
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The house has only one window
this window is the only connection between her and the world outside
she was told not to escape to that fascinating heaven
so the window was kept small
enough to breathe
enough to take a peek at the rainbow
enough to see cars zoom by and hear laughter of residents there
Though small,
she loved every moment spent standing there, watching life outside that window.
Her tears have left stains on the frame
Her finger-prints too
And so has her untouchable attachment to that squarish hole.
Now,
the owner of the house has changed his mind
'bang-bang', 'hammer-hammer', 'knock-knock'
the owner had put planks all over
sealing the window completely
How would she feel?
"Yes, the owner has the right, she should obey."
"No, its her window, she should break the planks and cause damage to the frame, leaving signs of rebellion around it."
What should she do?
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The owner came home with a small ball for his puppy
the very first toy
the most treasured one even though more toys came along the way
Puppy has grown to a big dog
The owner dumped the small ball into the bin
Puppy scrambled its way into the bin to retrieve its love
The owner said "Its dirty and scratched. Look, I've a bigger one for you here. Take it."
Puppy held the small ball between its jaws tightly, refused to accept the proposal
ran back into his kennel
wrapped its body around the round thing that has slept through so many nights with him
through shine and rain
the ball has never left him
How would the Dog feel?
What should the dog do?
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A couple was hoping for a baby
For years they couldn't have their own
they adopted one
the baby brought laughter, joy, hope for the man and wife
the baby brought meaning to their life
one miraculous day
the sperm finally met the egg
she was pregnant
the man said "we can't afford to have two, we have to give up the first"
the wife said "no. the baby is part of me, part of us. The baby has become my life. Letting go is cutting flesh off my body."
the man said "then we will die together."
How would the mother feel?
What should the mother do?
When "one" bend down to wipe the shit off "two's" bum, because "two" has hands too short.
No 'thank you' said is fine for "one".
but slapped "one's" face with that shit and 'what a busybody you are' is just not right.
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The landlord gathered some seeds and said to the farmer: "Make them into 'money' trees"
Farmer did as told
He sowed the seeds
He watered the seedlings
He killed the pests
He fell in love with the plants which grew into big apple trees
Bearing juicy fruits, good enough to be sold in the market
Money came rolling in
the landlord enjoyed the rewards.
Over time,
the landlord picked other seeds
"These will bring fruits that are bigger and more valuable, but I don't have enough land, so uproot all those apple trees and plant these new seeds."
How would the Farmer feel?
"Yes, he is the landlord, I should obey."
"No, they are my 'blood and sweat', I will NOT give them up."
What should the Farmer do?
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The house has only one window
this window is the only connection between her and the world outside
she was told not to escape to that fascinating heaven
so the window was kept small
enough to breathe
enough to take a peek at the rainbow
enough to see cars zoom by and hear laughter of residents there
Though small,
she loved every moment spent standing there, watching life outside that window.
Her tears have left stains on the frame
Her finger-prints too
And so has her untouchable attachment to that squarish hole.
Now,
the owner of the house has changed his mind
'bang-bang', 'hammer-hammer', 'knock-knock'
the owner had put planks all over
sealing the window completely
How would she feel?
"Yes, the owner has the right, she should obey."
"No, its her window, she should break the planks and cause damage to the frame, leaving signs of rebellion around it."
What should she do?
----------------------------------------------------------
The owner came home with a small ball for his puppy
the very first toy
the most treasured one even though more toys came along the way
Puppy has grown to a big dog
The owner dumped the small ball into the bin
Puppy scrambled its way into the bin to retrieve its love
The owner said "Its dirty and scratched. Look, I've a bigger one for you here. Take it."
Puppy held the small ball between its jaws tightly, refused to accept the proposal
ran back into his kennel
wrapped its body around the round thing that has slept through so many nights with him
through shine and rain
the ball has never left him
How would the Dog feel?
What should the dog do?
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A couple was hoping for a baby
For years they couldn't have their own
they adopted one
the baby brought laughter, joy, hope for the man and wife
the baby brought meaning to their life
one miraculous day
the sperm finally met the egg
she was pregnant
the man said "we can't afford to have two, we have to give up the first"
the wife said "no. the baby is part of me, part of us. The baby has become my life. Letting go is cutting flesh off my body."
the man said "then we will die together."
How would the mother feel?
What should the mother do?
Sunday, June 14, 2009
Song Sharing Sunday - #22
Every Song reminds me of a person, an event, a place, a smell, a taste....a secret, do you have a song to share today?
Love of a Lifetime - Firehouse
I guess the time was right for us to say
We'd take our time and live our lives together day by day
We'll make a wish and send it on a prayer
We know our dreams can all come true with love that we can share
With you I never wonder - will you be there for me
With you I never wonder - you're the right one for me
I finally found the love of a lifetime
A love to last my whole life through
I finally found the love of a lifetime
Forever in my heart, I finally found the love of a lifetime
Every kiss our love is like brand-new
And every star up in the sky was made for me and you
Still we both know that the road is long
(But) we know that we will be together because our love is strong
I finally found the love of a lifetime
A love to last my whole life through
I finally found the love of a lifetime
Forever in my heart, I finally found the love of a lifetime
Finally found the love of a lifetime
A love to last my whole life through
I finally found the love of a lifetime
Forever in my heart, I finally found the love of a lifetime
Love of a Lifetime
Finally found the love
Forever in my heart, I finally found the love of a lifetime
(Mr Linky has been giving me problem. Hence I've decided to strip it completely)
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Wednesday, June 10, 2009
My Invilgilation Days are Over
It ended yesterday.
But it almost prolonged 'its life' by one more day, when I received a call at almost 2pm TODAY, asking me if I could 'rush' down to the examination site to replace another person who couldn't report, and didn't even bother to inform them, till they call him up to ask why he hasn't 'appeared' yet. *sigh* How irresponsible.
Anyhow, THIS seemed to be a common event everyday.... sometimes I really wonder if these people realise that their couldn't-be-bothered attitude could be such a burden to others. We were short-handed every day. *sigh*
Last year the biggest reward I received from doing a 5-days invigilation was my anti-daddy younger son became a love-to-have-daddy-around boy.
This year was even better! The duo got even closer, so much so that he would say "I Miss Papa" when Allan was out for appointment this morning. Whoo-hoo!
But what really made me happy this time round was a new found friend, Carine.
She was a newbie. When we were there on last Monday, our eyes caught each other, feeling a sense of familiarity but just couldn't recall where we have met before. After a few minutes of 'stealing glances'; as if lightning has struck us; both of us exclaimed almost at the same time "Oh! You sat beside me during the briefing 2 weeks ago!!!" Laughter broke the silence.
And since then we were so close, others thought we knew each other before we accepted the RELC offer. We were like each others' shadows! *laugh*
There were these 2 days when I have arranged to meet my friends after the exam ended at 6.15pm. Both of us chatted non-stop in the MRT and parted with unfinished sentences.
Many have categorized me as 'Auntie'. I'm no longer a girl nor a young woman but rather an 'Auntie'; all because I am married with 2 kids. *eyes rolled*
But THAT labeling has never bothered me, 'cos I know I still behave very much like a kid. Call me childish if you want. I'm wouldn't even debate about that. But truth of the matter is, I'm still very young at heart.
Carine is no old lady. She just passed her 20. A sweetie pie who is 11years younger than me, yet we could see each other becoming best of friends. Amazing isn't it? Even though we are in different stages of our lives, but being Libras, we just have never ending topics to talk about. Our friendship is built on the foundation of mutual respect and telepathy.
Talking about the latter, we are so much alike that we could trip on the same spot at the same time! *laugh*
So this time the rewards of doing invigilation have quadrupled:
Bonding time between father and sons
Me-time
Monetary, and
Carine - my new friend.
*smile*
But it almost prolonged 'its life' by one more day, when I received a call at almost 2pm TODAY, asking me if I could 'rush' down to the examination site to replace another person who couldn't report, and didn't even bother to inform them, till they call him up to ask why he hasn't 'appeared' yet. *sigh* How irresponsible.
Anyhow, THIS seemed to be a common event everyday.... sometimes I really wonder if these people realise that their couldn't-be-bothered attitude could be such a burden to others. We were short-handed every day. *sigh*
Last year the biggest reward I received from doing a 5-days invigilation was my anti-daddy younger son became a love-to-have-daddy-around boy.
This year was even better! The duo got even closer, so much so that he would say "I Miss Papa" when Allan was out for appointment this morning. Whoo-hoo!
But what really made me happy this time round was a new found friend, Carine.
She was a newbie. When we were there on last Monday, our eyes caught each other, feeling a sense of familiarity but just couldn't recall where we have met before. After a few minutes of 'stealing glances'; as if lightning has struck us; both of us exclaimed almost at the same time "Oh! You sat beside me during the briefing 2 weeks ago!!!" Laughter broke the silence.
And since then we were so close, others thought we knew each other before we accepted the RELC offer. We were like each others' shadows! *laugh*
There were these 2 days when I have arranged to meet my friends after the exam ended at 6.15pm. Both of us chatted non-stop in the MRT and parted with unfinished sentences.
Many have categorized me as 'Auntie'. I'm no longer a girl nor a young woman but rather an 'Auntie'; all because I am married with 2 kids. *eyes rolled*
But THAT labeling has never bothered me, 'cos I know I still behave very much like a kid. Call me childish if you want. I'm wouldn't even debate about that. But truth of the matter is, I'm still very young at heart.
Carine is no old lady. She just passed her 20. A sweetie pie who is 11years younger than me, yet we could see each other becoming best of friends. Amazing isn't it? Even though we are in different stages of our lives, but being Libras, we just have never ending topics to talk about. Our friendship is built on the foundation of mutual respect and telepathy.
Talking about the latter, we are so much alike that we could trip on the same spot at the same time! *laugh*
So this time the rewards of doing invigilation have quadrupled:
Bonding time between father and sons
Me-time
Monetary, and
Carine - my new friend.
*smile*
Sunday, June 7, 2009
Song Sharing Sunday - #21
Every Song reminds me of a person, an event, a place, a smell, a taste....a secret, do you have a song to share today?
It Might Be You - Stephen Bishop
Time,
I've been passing time watching trains go by
All of my life
Lying on the sand watching seabirds fly
Wishing there would be someone
Waiting home for me
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, It's telling me it might be you
All of my life
Looking back as lovers go walking pass
All of my life
Wondering how they met and what makes it last
If I found the place would I recognize the face
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, It's telling me it might be you
So many quiet walks to take
So many dreams to wake and there's so much love to make
I think we're gonna need some time
Maybe all we need is time
And it's telling me it might be you
All of my life
I've been saving love songs and lullabies
And there's so much more
No one's ever heard before
Something's telling me it might be you
Yeah, it's telling me it must be you and
I'm feeling it'll just be you
All of my life
It's you, maybe it's you I've been waiting for all of my life
Maybe it's you (It's you)
Maybe it's you (It's you)
I've been waiting for all of my life.
Maybe it's you
Maybe it's you
I've been waiting for all of my life.
Maybe it's you
Maybe it's you
I've been waiting for all of my life.
(Mr Linky has been giving me problem. Hence I've decided to strip it completely)
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Monday, June 1, 2009
My Invilgilation Days has began
Today is the start of another round of invigilation days for the famous ACCA examinations.
I should say it came in time to get my mind off from what's still bugging me since last night.
This time I was assigned for 6 days, 3 days on this week and 3 on next. But because Allan have an appointment clashing with one of the days, I had no choice but to reject that extra day of income. So its down to 5 days only.
Friends getting married, friends celebrating birthdays, kids on holidays and with this invigilation thingy, I really need to squeeze out time to do what I really missed doing - bloghop. *sigh*
I should say it came in time to get my mind off from what's still bugging me since last night.
This time I was assigned for 6 days, 3 days on this week and 3 on next. But because Allan have an appointment clashing with one of the days, I had no choice but to reject that extra day of income. So its down to 5 days only.
Friends getting married, friends celebrating birthdays, kids on holidays and with this invigilation thingy, I really need to squeeze out time to do what I really missed doing - bloghop. *sigh*
I can't find a title to describe this post...'cos I'm feeling so messed up emotionally right now...
Have you ever felt so pain you can't even cry out?
Have you ever felt so frustrated that even pulling your hair doesn't help?
Have you ever felt so sad that your tears can't even fall?
Have you ever felt so angry that getting a cold bath doesn't cool down the heat?
Have you ever felt ALL THE ABOVE at the same time?
The feeling is so "<:"#$&^-%#@
*Aaaarrrrggghhhhh*
How?
How do you get rid of such a feeling?
And worse you are not feeling it early in the morning where kids can come along and slowly take away all of that subtly.
You are feeling this after realizing something, just past midnight, when you are ready for bed.
And now you can't even stay still on your pillow.
How?
How do you get rid of such a feeling so that you can go to bed????
*AAAaaaarrrrggghhhh*
Teach me please......
Have you ever felt so pain you can't even cry out?
Have you ever felt so frustrated that even pulling your hair doesn't help?
Have you ever felt so sad that your tears can't even fall?
Have you ever felt so angry that getting a cold bath doesn't cool down the heat?
Have you ever felt ALL THE ABOVE at the same time?
The feeling is so "<:"#$&^-%#@
*Aaaarrrrggghhhhh*
How?
How do you get rid of such a feeling?
And worse you are not feeling it early in the morning where kids can come along and slowly take away all of that subtly.
You are feeling this after realizing something, just past midnight, when you are ready for bed.
And now you can't even stay still on your pillow.
How?
How do you get rid of such a feeling so that you can go to bed????
*AAAaaaarrrrggghhhh*
Teach me please......
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