Song Sharing Sunday - #33

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Hands To Heaven - Breathe








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Michael Jackson my happy potion

Its been 9-days of craziness and still counting... the only thing that keeps my mood up daily are my little brown lovables > chocolates.

For the past 4 days, as if my guardian angel feels that I deserve to be grinning wider than a simple smile, gifts have been dropping on my lap!

First, it was a 'big' gift from Allan's auntie who took a 45mins train ride just to pass 'it' to me. Not knowing the situation at home, she came because of my hospitalisation issues.

Then Popular Bookshop gave me 2 vouchers for next month, because its my BIRTHDAY MONTH!

1. A complimentary Buffet Lunch/Dinner at Seoul Garden
2. 20% off Any Whole Ice Cream Cake

But I think I'll give the 2nd voucher a pass, especially after the hilarious encounter with my niece's ice-cream cake. *huge laugh*

Next, FINALLY!!! Our very first pair of Crocs are ready for collection after 2 months! Woah! What a wait! So that would be our first trip OUT OF THE HOUSE once all these insanity at home diminishes.

To lift up my spirits even higher, I had a chance to do a review post for a new company! The best part was they paid me the very NEXT DAY! Super speedy payment! Love it! *Muack*

Today comes the big bang! Michael Jackson History World Tour in Munich on Channel 5, 7pm-9.30pm! Whoo-hoo!

I have less than 2 hours now..... better get dinner prepared early today.... Adios everyone!

H1N1-confirmed

I realised that the 'readers' for my personal blog is slightly different from my blog on kids. So for the benefit of those who love THIS blog but doesn't visit the other, please hop over to know the details of my boys' swab test for H1N1 and my reaction to that..... Click here....

I will not be doing such post often... 'cos I want to keep my blogs as separate 'entities', but I'm too exhausted to say much over here now... so if you have time... go read...
Thank you....

My Only Motivation...

My ticket for the long awaited Anthony Robbins Seminar has finally reached my hands.

Some of you have asked, "What's keeping you so strong throughout this week?"

Its this!

Going to his seminar is THE reason why I refused to fall sick. That's some pretty strong mind power eh? *giggle*

I have been telling myself. I MUST STAY HEALTHY, so that I can GO to his seminar. One year ago, his seminar took away my fear in driving. Imagine, if I didn't go for it last year. I wouldn't have been able to drive my boys to the polyclinic.

Carrying them all the way there would be out of the question; Or worse, wasting money by paying an absurd amount to the taxi driver just for a 5mins drive? Sorry, ever since the price of the taxi fares changed 3 years ago, I have self-banned myself from taking taxi.

So, this man means a lot to me. I have fears I had long wished to get rid off. Hence, I NEED, I MUST, I HAVE TO go.... next week....

The doctors said the 'madness' will end in 7 days. But LOOK AT THE SITUATION NOW! Today IS the 7th day and I can hardly see silver linings.....

Superstition

Superstition can really go out of hand.

Some of my friends who knew that I have just started selling thermometers last week, suspected that its because of my new 'intake', my family is struck with fever!
*faint*

Unbelievable?! Believe it!

The Nicest and the Worst

I have been few words for the past 4 days at home.
Conserving energy.

The nicest thing Allan said to me today was, "Sorry Dearie, I can't help you take care of them."

The worst reply I gave him was, "Don't say such things. I'm not in a very good mood. Are you telling me that I should say, "Sorry Dearie, I can't grow another pair of hands to take care of you." ?"

Was he angry?
Nahhh....
He knows I love to hear him say such things....

"You don't need to take care of me. I can take care of myself. But I am really too weak to take care of them....sorry." he continued in his weakest voice.

"Go take medicine, thereafter, go sleep. Conserve your energy, don't talk so much."
and off I went to grab his cup of water and Panadols and pushed them to him.
"Now, take!"

If you are not a follower of my blog on kids, you'll probably need to hop over there to get the full picture...at least for this particular post.

Song Sharing Sunday - #32

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The Search Is Over - Survivor






How can I convince you what you see is real
Who am I to blame you for doubting what you feel
I was always reachin', you were just a girl I knew
I took for granted the friend I have in you

I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while

Can we last forever, will we fall apart
At times it's so confusing, these questions of the heart
You followed me through changes and patiently you'd wait
Till I came to my senses through some miracle of fate

I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Now I look into your eyes
I can see forever, the search is over
You were with me all the while

Now the miles stretch out behind me
Loves that I have lost
Broken hearts lie victims of the game
Then good luck it finally struck
Like lightning from the blue
Every highway leading me back to you

Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done
The search has come full circle
Our destinies are one
So if you ever loved me
Show me that you give a damn
You'll know for certain
The man I really am

I was living for a dream, loving for a moment
Taking on the world, that was just my style
Then I touched your hand, I could hear you whisper
The search is over, love was right before my eyes



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My Son is More Important

Because of this post in my Children's Blog, I had to postpone my initial plan of going for my highly supported '2nd Opinion' on Monday.
Postpone to when?
From the way things are going.... I really have no idea....
*sigh*
When will all these end?

Decision has been Made

2 days, I think its a good enough period to gather your votes.
So everyone of you supported Allan eh? *wink*

Since that's the case, most likely next week, I'll go get the Second Opinion, 'cos Allan is hardly free on weekends anyway.

Thank you, to all 24 of you who have took 1min of your time to vote. (number of voters as at 4.47pm) *Muack*

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My blood test results were fantastic!
The results show that my liver is completely back to normal.

I asked, "If so, why do I still have that occasional gripping pain?"
He told me it could just be a sign of weakness. Looking at the results, he continued to say that the pain should go away over time.

"So what exactly caused my pain?" I probed.

"From the look of the whole situation, from the beginning till now, it should be a medication problem. Not due to food or virus. Have you ever ate this antibiotic called 'Augmentin'? It is a common antibiotic prescribed by GPs, yet it is also common that this antibiotic could cause such derangement of the liver."

"I'm not sure if that's the antibiotic given by my GP. But I have SHOWED my GPs prescriptions to the SGH doctors already during my first hospitalisation."

"I don't have that record. Ok, since you still have the occasional pain, but bearable, I'm giving you an appointment 2 months later. We will do another detailed blood test for the liver, just to be sure that there isn't a relapse."

Allan is not satisfied with the answer. He suggested that I should seek a 2nd opinion from another Western doctor, which he already had in mind. Someone who have been referred by many because of the doctor's 'miraculous healing' stories. Nothing spiritual. Purely a normal private clinic.

But, I feel that since my pain is only occassional AND definitely more bearable than what it used to be, AND since its not due to food, I can EAT!!! (more) freely, AND the doctor say the pain should go away on its own, so I thought seeking a 2nd opinion is not necessary. Then again, the doctor did warn me that if a certain food causes more pain after consumption, then THAT food should be avoided.

So now I need your vote. Do you think I should seek a 2nd opinion? Please vote on the top of this post. Thank you.

2nd Review tomorrow

Will be doing another blood test tomorrow.
Results will be out in an hour.
To check my Jaundice level and my liver's 'capability' level too.

There has been a change in my pain ever since I popped in the last antibiotic capsule on Friday night.
Now (and I really mean NOW (18 Aug 7.15pm)), the pain has changed from occasional sharp pain to a 'gripping' kind of pain.
Though the duration is longer, when this new 'gripping' pain comes, you would not see me 'grabbing' my pain area with my palm instantly like before with a frown on my face.
Instead, you'll see me slightly pressing in and stroking that area, till its gone.

I see it as a good sign. Now I'm wondering if it was the antibiotics which were the trouble maker.
*Shoulders Shrugged*

So here's wishing myself, "All the Best for tomorrow's Test."

I was Exorcised

To my MIL, being in pain (severe or not) for almost 2 months, being hospitalised twice in a month, spending 13 days in hospital, done countless tests (big and small) and YET no cause is found is just too abnormal.

And to the 60+ year old lady, Abnormal = Supernatural Force is in Control.

The day right after I was discharged, she came to my house equipped with 'tools'.

That morning she went to the 'priest' to ask what happened to me. The priest told her that I have offended my ancestors. Sold her a stack of paper money, with a paper figure of a woman (representing me) and joss sticks. She was told to perform exorcism on me only after the sun has set.

My nieces and nephew had a great time with my boys in my house. A place where children can jump and run around like crazy. A completely different planet from their house, which is 'ruled' by my MIL (almost). *giggle*

When the time has come, the noisy bunch were told to lock themselves in the room till a sign is given. My FIL and Allan were the caretaker for that short session.

MIL stroke my body with the pile of paper money and the paper 'Me'. She said my name and mumbled something like, "She was careless. She didn't mean to offend you. Please forgive her. Please remove all the bad things from her body....so on and so forth."

After that was done, she headed down to the ground floor with that stack on her hand together with a bowl of rice and some joss sticks. She was told by the priest she had to take the stairs, not the lift.

Thank God I did not stay on the 20th floor!

Still, my unit is on a 2-digit level.

Doing this didn't take away my pain till now, but it gave my MIL a piece of mind. She thinks that after doing this, the cause of the pain will not be 'hidden' by the 'you-know-who' and hence the cause will be found when I go for my next blood test, which will be on 19th Aug, Wednesday.

Let's see if its true.... *wink*

Song Sharing Sunday - #31

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Eyes On Me - Faye Wong








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Jaundice

I have forgotten to mention that I had Jaundice when I was hospitalised.

Remember my Day 2 post? I mentioned "I noticed my urine colour was becoming darker.... something between the colour of Chrysanthemum Tea and Earl Grey. A thousand apologies if you are holding a cup of that right now...." and I forgot to continue to say that the side of my eyes turned yellow too. Soon enough, the test results showed that I'm down with Jaundice.

And AGAIN! I forgot to mention that in my review yesterday that though my eyes are back to its original colour and so has my urine, my Jaundice has NOT cleared up yet. So its still a mystery why my Jaundice has not left by now... as it should....

Many of you have asked, "So how are you now?"

My answer is the same to all....
"I still have occasional sharp pain, but definitely bearable. But the real test will come when my antibiotics run out this weekend. 'Cos that was exactly what happened to me weeks after I was discharged from my first admission. The moment the antibiotics ran out, my pain came right back and MUCH STRONGER."

*deep sigh*
Sunday.... will be another test
*fingers and toes crossed*

1st Review after 2nd Hospitalisation

Good and bad news.

Let's talk about the good first.
I am immune to Hepatitis B, hence I can continue to share food with my boys. Yippee!
You know how disappointed I was when they told me its Hepatitis?
Which means if I happened to be Hepatitis B, the chances of Allan getting it would be really high too. Of cos, my boys had the immunisation done, but still, there is a risk, isn't it?

Anyway, that's thrown out of the window now.
I am NOT down with Hepatitis B.

Just Hepatitis.
By the way, some of you have asked, what exactly is Hepatitis, here's what Wikipedia said:-
"Hepatitis (plural hepatitides) implies injury to the liver characterized by the presence of inflammatory cells in the tissue of the organ."

In short, it simply means my liver is inflamed.

If you have read my 2nd hospitalisation day 7 of 7 , its clear that there is no need for surgical procedures. Hence today was my last day under the surgical team.

On 19th Aug (supposedly on 17th), I'll be officially under the medical team. Whereby more tests would be run to know exactly what had caused my liver to be in such a bad condition.

According to the Professor whom I met up with today, he told me that they had gone beyond the boundaries and did much more for me in finding out if I needed an operation. On top of that, they had even done some 'rare' test, but all came out negative. All in the good faith of finding if I need surgery to remove life-threatening causes.

He further highlight, "Your case is really 'special'. Looking at your liver, its quite derange, meaning its really bad."

He continued to emphasize that I will be on 'trial-and-error' with the medical team till they finally found the cause and the time needed may be much longer that expected.

I asked, "Would my liver recover on its own?"

"Its possible, but what's important now is to find out what exactly caused your liver to be in such a bad condition. It could be simply something that you eat, or herbs that your liver can't accept, or medication...." he replied.

Personally, I consider myself a really obedient girl, I have abstained from the following food (some of which were out of my diet list, ever since my pain started one plus month ago):-

• No seafood except fish
• No spicy
• No sourish
• No cold drinks or food
• No peanuts
• No rojak (a mixture of vegetables and fruits in a black creamy sauce)
• No raw food like sushi and sashimi
• No deep fried and oily food
  

Can you feel my fear?
I might just 'stumble' on the forbidden food/drink again unknowingly; and with the current condition of my liver, the result could be devastating.

I just hope they DO find the cause of my pain real soon....

2nd Hospitalisation Day 7 of 7

31st July 2009

7.30am Allan came.

9am Doctors came. The Senior Surgeon said, "Now that we have confirmed your pain is NOT due to anything life-threatening, not surgery will be done on you. This is a medical problem, not surgical. Since your pain has not improved, we will transfer you to the Gastro Department."

"When 'this' doctor came yesterday and told me to 'Try to Eat'. I thought you guys have given up on me, so I was prepared to go home."

"So you wish to go home?"

"Not unless you guys have new findings on my pain."

"Ok, we will get the Gastro guy to come and see you then we will decide, ok?"

With that, they left. Allan and I was taken aback. What a huge misunderstand it had been!!!

All along, their focus and our focus were poles apart. They were in search for a reason to CUT ME OPEN, they were NOT looking at my pain nor my symptoms!!!

So NOW! They are finally moving towards the direction of my pain.....

1PM The Gastro guy came. Asked sooooooooo many questions! I'm glad he came to a conclusion after all the interrogation.

"Hepatitis" was all that he said.

But he wouldn't want to be sure till more blood tests are done.

The nurse had a hard time collecting my blood this time, because of the blood clots in my cannula (plug). See the picture on the left. Can you see the blood clots, the darker shades (on the top left and bottom right)? She had to 'dig' it out with a needle to clear the blockage.....

The nurse took 2 tubes of blood. The result of these blood tests will be out only 2 weeks later. So I had to come back for review on the 17th.

4pm Another doctor came and insisted that I take another tube of blood for an urgent test. This will determine if I will go home. Its to test my liver functionality. He gave us 2 options:-

1. Wait for the test result to be out, which will be around 9pm. If the result shows constant or improving, I can go home straight away.
   
2. Stay another night here and see the results tomorrow.

I looked at Allan. My mind was completely blank after being 'played around' by the doctors for so many days.

The doctor sensed that we were not happy with either choice. He said, "Ok, ok, one last choice. Do the test now, you can go home right after the test. But promise me you'll rush back if the result is not good. Keep your phone switched on."

His fear was that if there is a sudden enzyme reaction, it may result in instant liver failure.

After doing so many tests, I have 100% confidence that the test result would be alright. *sigh* How ironic is that?!

So we chose option 3.

5pm Doctor came smiling. "Great! Your liver function is improving. Your jaundice level has dropped too. So you can go home now."

SEE????!!!!! I think I can either be a fortune-teller or a doctor.... *sigh*

Luckily we didn't choose option 1 or 2, the result could be out in just an hour, all because they sent down my tube of blood as "Urgent Case".
When there's a will, there's a way.

So I'm out of hospital. Review on 12th and 17th August 2009. I have no idea why there were two different appointment dates, I couldn't be bothered anyway.

And so this time, I left the hospital with 7 more needle holes and a big packet of anti-biotics again.

So conclusion?
NONE!

*sigh*

2nd Hospitalisation Day 6 of 7

30th July 2009

2am I was woken by a sharp pain on my left hand. The nausea-jab helped me to sleep so well, I accidentally detached the 'PINK plug' while I was asleep. *faint* I woke up in a pool of blood on the left side of my bed. The nurse was trying to re-insert the 'PINK plug', it was that pain which woke me up. Soon after that was done, I was back to dreamland again. Too tired.

6am Woke up. Can't stand the sight of my bed and the blood stains on my arm, went to bathe while the cleaners changed my bedsheets.

8am Doctor came and told me they found traces of existence of stones in my gall, but they can't find the stones anywhere now. They were waiting for another report to check if there were REALLY stones in the first place. With this new findings, I was elated! I told Allan and he volunteered to update my Facebook status for me.

The nurses changed shifts and the 'new' senior staff nurse couldn't stand the ugly sight of the blood stains on the tapes around my 'Pink plug', she volunteered to clean it up for me and she too, drew a smiling face with a tongue sticking out for me. *giggle*

Sad to say, majority of the nurses I met this round was horrible! There was one whose attitude is beyond words!

7.30pm Doctor came and shook his head again! He said he couldn't find the stones and asked that I should try to EAT!!!!

He said he can't understand why I'm still in pain. *AAArrrggghhhh* Gave me the same doubtful look again.

He told Allan to go to the Foodcourt at the ground floor of the hospital to get me a bowl of porridge.

I was very upset. Very Very disappointed.

I took several tiny bites. Pain was felt. I got scared. I stopped. I didn't want the pain to be excruciating again.

I sat there, looking at my sis and Allan. My anger grew. I snapped.

"This is ridiculous! I want to seek a second opinion. I want to be discharged. Its a waste of time and money with all the scans and tests and nothing can be found. *Aaarrgghhhhh* Dearie, tomorrow, can you come at 7am to 'catch' the doctors? Let's hear what they have to say now, since MRI was the 'final' scan. If they do not have any new direction to find out the cause of my pain, I want to leave that very moment."

And so it was planned. I slept with a tummy of fire.

Song Sharing Sunday - #30

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听说爱情回来过 - Sandy Lam








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Happy National Day!!!

Happy 44th Birthday, Singapore!!!!

2nd Hospitalisation Day 5 of 7

29th July 2009

7.30am The doctors came for their rounds. I asked, "What if the MRI showed nothing? What next?" The Senior Surgeon replied, "Not that we hope to see something. But we are trying to rule-out the life-threatening causes first." Answering as if it was not answered. *eyes rolled*

11am My experience from my previous 5-day stay in the hospital earlier this month (July) paid off today. They need to insert the 'PINK plug', just like the one they did for my CT scan. Remember? The very horrible scan which I couldn't even scream???

MRI was similar. Liquid would be pumped into my body through the 'PINK plug'. But the good news was, there was no pumping into the anus and no giant cups of water to drink. *phew* On the contrary, they kept asking me to empty my bladder.

I told the young nurse about my previous experience; how painful my hand was when the 'PINK plug' was inserted by the 'inexperience' nurse. I think I scared her enough to move her legs and walk towards her senior staff nurse, seeking for assistance. *laugh*

I requested for the 'PINK plug' to be inserted at the side of my wrist instead of the back of my hand. This spot is better because there are less movement. Hence less painful too. Yippee!!! She agreed. In the end, it was the senior staff nurse who did it for me, instead of the young nurse. *laugh*

When it was inserted beautifully, the young nurse did the 'finishing touches'. She was soooooooooooo cute! She drew a Happy Face on the tape to cheer me up. *Grin*

Though the pain can still be felt many hours later, but not as bad as the previous round which distracted me from doing almost everything.

Menstruation came as expected, didn't add to the pain nor the suffering, just felt more lethargic.

Every patient in the ward was entertained today by a group of trainee-doctors. They were preparing for their 'practical' exams. Instructed by their professor to 'interview' the patients in my ward; the chatty me was all ready to talk!!! *laugh*

6.15pm So that helped to pass time really quickly.... and before I know it, it was time for the MRI.

Went into a tunnel which was much smaller than the CT-scan. The environment was more relaxing too. The fluid which passed through the plug was so cooling, it felt like ice-water going into my veins. Nice!

They laid this heavy metallic thing over my chest, very much like the Armour which warrior wears. A super huge headphone for me to hear the instructions on when to breathe in and hold; and when to breathe normally.

Soon I felt like I was in a rocket, ready for take off. There were all sorts of noises. First it was "Di-Dok, Di-Dok.....", then came "Di Di Di Di....Doog Doog Doog...", soon after that it was "Diiiewww....Diiieewww...." and many more...

Really fun, even though it took approximately 30-45mins, I was so entertained, I didn't fall asleep. *laugh*

I asked the doctor if he saw anything unusual. He told me my stomach was full of water and asked if I fasted for more than 12hours. "I did". He gave me the puzzled look. When I probed for more info on my scan, he refused to tell.

7.30pm I was done and gone back to my ward. Doctor came and told me that the results of the MRI will be out tomorrow. He told me he has purposely stop ordering drinks for me today, after seeing the reaction I had yesterday. Before he left, I asked for the nausea-jab for a good night rest again....

2nd Hospitalisation Day 4 of 7

28th July 2009

2am Nausea. But nothing came out of the gagging. Couldn't sleep well after that.

8am Milo was served again. My body reacted the same way as it did yesterday.

12pm Milk was served for a change. The milk tasted funny. It tasted more like diluted strawberry yogurt.

6.30pm For some silly reasons, I could not have my MRI done today. Had to wait till tomorrow late evening again. *Arrrgghhhh*

The only thing that cheered me up today was a nice pot of flowers was sent by my 18 year long friend, X.Y. Thank you girl. This definitely put a smile on my face for an unfruitful day...

That funny tasting milk was served again. This time, the pain was severe after a couple of mouth.

I stopped.

I clenched my fist and pressed into my gastric. I waited for it to subside like the past 3 cups. BUT IT DIDN'T!

It ESCALATED! *PAINNNNNN* I started tearing again.....

The nurse saw me and volunteered to call the doctor immediately. By the time the doctor came up, my pain was bearable. He asked if I needed the pain-killer jab. I said "No". I don't like to be a weakling, seeking for the needle when the pain was still bearable.

But I requested for the nausea-jab. I wanted to have a good night rest. I could hardly sleep since 2am today. He approved.

I was completely unconscious almost 30mins after the jab.... Zzzzz.....

2nd Hospitalisation Day 3 of 7

27th July 2009

I had so many different drips everyday, that the nurses grew smarter by changing the cannula to a 'directional' one. They probably got lazy changing the tubes; with a directional cannula, all they do is just 'turn' the knob. *laugh*

1.45pm I was wheeled down for a detailed Ultrasound. I did my best to 'psycho' the doctor to do a very thorough job. Whenever she pressed onto a painful part, I would exclaim, "Yes, here...this part is painful, can you see anything??? Does it look abnormal in anyway??? Anything suspicious???"

"NO."

Over and over again, I 'forced' her to concentrate on the parts that are painful. All I got was the same reply> "No."

I think I had over-physco-ed her . She didn't trust her own eyes. She called her consultant in to re-do the scan. *laugh*
Still, it was the same 2-alphabet reply....."No." *sigh*

6.30pm I was scheduled for the 'Final' scan tomorrow. According to the doctors, THIS is THE utmost scan before they will have to cut me open for an even more detailed check. They said MRI is a very sensitive 'scanner', hence its the most comprehensive; so I'm prepared for a 'shock-of-my-life' figure on my bill this time.

Securing a slot for the MRI was no smooth ride.

I was asked if I had metal implants in my body. I told them about my 'fake' tooth. The doctors insisted that I give my dentist a ring to check the components and the brand of the metal in my 'fake' tooth. I did as told, but my dentist didn't know.

She gave me the number to call the technician who created the tooth. Called him, he was not willing to give me the details. Hmmm.... this was what he said, "You are in no position to know this, I do not know why the dentist gave you my number. She SHOULD call me herself and reply you later." *Aaarrrggghhhhh*

He hung up the phone and instructed me to call my dentist 10 minutes later. I got distracted by the atrocious acts of a particular nurse and totally forgot about calling my dentist back. An hour later, a message was received on my handphone. Wow! Super precise! Every component of the 'fake' tooth was stated with a percentage beside it. Cool!

Ran to the nurse and passed the details over so as to find out if my 'fake' tooth would be sucked up by the magnetic force. *laugh* I wouldn't want to be toothless because of one silly scan which has a high chance of giving me a 'disappointing' result in the end. Can you see that I have very little faith in all these machines already? *sigh*

Hours later, the nurse came over and told me that its been 'approved' and she had secured a time slot for the MRI scan tomorrow late evening.

9pm+ Doctor came and suggested that I should TRY DRINKING. You see, there is something which I didn't mention in my previous stay in the hospital earlier this month (July). The doctors have been giving me the "I wonder if you are REALLY IN PAIN... hmmm...." kind of look.

This time is NO different either. *eyes rolled* How sickening! Would I be such a dumbhead to put myself through all the pain and empty my pockets to those silly machines, missing my comfortable bed, my boys and all?!!!
*Arrggghhhh*

Anyway, he came and told me to try drinking *Milo. If I can drink without feeling sharp pain, I should be fine and ready to go home..... *eyes rolled*

Though I had little confident, I drank, cos I was HUNGRY!!! No food for 3 days for a glutton like me is another kind of torture altogether.

I sipped little by little. Yes sharp pain came after a couple of sips, taking lots of breaks in between, but I survived the whole cup. The nurse asked me for a pain score of the sharp pain. I told her "8" ("10" being the I-would-rather-be-dead kind of pain, which was what I had at the A&E).

Slept well through the night, smelling the fragrance of the Milo in my breath.....

2nd Hospitalisation Day 2 of 7

26th July 2009

2am- Vomited my Go Go Bambini Lunch twice. Unbelievable, after so many hours! It was in semi-digested form. Eeewwww....

7.30am- Doctors came for their usual rounds. They suspected gall stones, yet they think that I'm too young to have that. Hmmm....how contradicting....

Throughout the day, Ultrasound, Urine and more Blood Tests were done AGAIN!
I noticed my urine colour was becoming darker.... something between the colour of Chrysanthemum Tea and Earl Grey. A thousand apologies if you are holding a cup of that right now....

The only difference this time was the 'Swap' (not too sure of the spelling). It was a standard procedure done by the hospital if a patient is admitted more than once in less than 30 days. The nurse inserted a very thin flexible cotton stick into my nostril, to get some samples out, in case I was admitted the 2nd round due to viral infection from the first admission. I was chanting so hard, "please don't sneeze, please don't sneeze...." *giggle*

You! My faithful readers and followers of my health.... guess what's the report from all the tests?

.................................................

So Clever! You've guessed it. > Nothing abnormal was found.
The guinea pig continues her stay in the hospital......
*sigh*

2nd Hospitalisation Day 1of 7

25th July 2009

We wanted to stay at Go Go Bambini for another hour or so after the event, but the pain in my abdomen was increasing so rapidly, we had to cut the fun earlier. Allan drove me home, called my uncle and asked if I could take the 2nd packet of herbs immediately, instead of waiting till night comes. He said ok, since I'm in such intense pain.


I was curling like a prawn the whole time on the sofa. Arms wrapped over my upper abdomen in search for a little comfort. Warm water bottle didn't help either. The pain just kept on shooting up. After 1hr+, the medication was ready, I drank it slowly till its all down. Tasting bitterness is a delight to me, but not this time.

My head was hurting and feeling nausea soon after I emptied the bowl of black soup. Then came the extremely sharp pain. I was in tears. It was unbearable. In the same prawn position, I couldn't stay still. Allan got really worried. Called my uncle again and he suggested that I should head down to A&E straight away, because the herbs were excellent for pain reduction and obviously they were not working at all!

Allan called his elder bro to come and fetch the boys to my in-laws' house. Half an hour later, the chauffeur was here. Binbin cried and hugged me before leaving with his bolster and cute-little-baby in his hands. He knew he was NOT coming home to stay that night......

We waited; because I refused to go to the hospital. I was disheartened by what happened in the previous round. Did so many tests and yet there were no conclusion. Going to another hospital would simply mean that I had to REDO everything again, or worse, they might refer me back to SGH.

I was tearing even more now, banging my head on the floor, hoping to knock myself unconscious. Allan couldn't bear to see me, insisted that I should go.... I had little strength left to reject the offer. He held me tightly by my shoulder against his and off we went to the car.

When I reach the entrance of SGH, the pain was completely unbearable. I was gagging and could hardly stand on my wobbling legs. Before I could say "Help!", the security guard, two medics and one nurse held me while one of them rested me on the wheelchair.

Luckily I had my ID in hand, could hardly talk, was choking on my tears by the time the medics were examining me. In less than a minute, I was in the Intensive Care Unit. Still in the 'prawn' position, different doctors came one by one but none could examine me properly 'cos I couldn't straighten my body.

They injected the painkiller through the cannula. It didn't work.
Gave me 3 tablets to stop the pain. That didn't work too.
In the end, it was 2ml of Morphine that eased my pain.

I didn't know I was injected with Morphine till another nurse came a few minutes later and wanted to inject another needle on my right arm, she said, "The doctor gave you Morphine earlier, so now I'm giving you something to prevent you from vomiting, a very common side effect after taking Morphine."

X-rays and Ultrasound plus blood and urine tests were done. Nothing was found. As usual. *eyes rolled*

After seeing that I have calmed down, I was pushed up to my ward. This time, its truly a B2 class non-aircon ward, not so 'lucky' this time. Still, this WAS my choice, at least I won't have to worry about my lights and my door when I'm asleep. *giggle*

Missing Blogger Function Bar Solved

Yippee!!!!
My sis found the 'cure' for my missing Blogger Function Bar, just a simple change in the proxy settings and now 'Whoo-hoo', my Function Bar is right before my eyes, just like the good old days....

All geared up now, ready to start blogging about my 2nd admission to hospital once the kids nap. *wink*

Thank you Sis!

Waiting for a miracle....

THIS blog is still NOT showing me the function bar. I still can't attach photos nor enhance my words. Sought help, did this and that but nothing has worked yet.

Without my 'usual style' of blogging, having bold and coloured words accompanied by pictures, I really don't feel like blogging.....

Will my blog's function bar be back to how it was? tomorrow? or in the next 2 seconds? or NOW???!

I have so much to 'show' and 'express' for this second admission to the hospital.... feeling so handicapped now without the function bar....

By the way, I think its only right for me to update my current health. Don't worry, I'll keep it simple:-
"I am STILL NOT well yet"

Sharp pain is felt at gastric, liver, spleen, left and right side of lower abdomen every now and then. They don't happen at the same time though, thank goodness!

Living on antibiotics. I simply refuse to take pain killers, so long as the pain is bearable. Unlike my 'trauma' at the A&E, the doctors had to ease my pain with Morphine!

Oh.... function bar!!! Come back to me won't you? These plain black words are doing no good!!!!

*Hummmph*

Song Sharing Sunday - #29

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Every Song reminds me of a person, an event, a place, a smell, a taste....a secret, do you have a song to share today?


Part Time Lover - Stevie Wonder




Call up, ring once, hang up the phone
To let me know you made it home
Dont want nothing to be wrong with part-time lover
If shes with me Ill blink the lights
To let you know tonights the night
For me and you my part-time lover

We are undercover passion on the run
Chasing love up against the sun
We are strangers by day, lovers by night
Knowing its so wrong, but feeling so right

If Im with friends and we should meet
Just pass me by, dont even speak
Know the words discreet when part-time lovers
But if theres some emergency
Have a male friend to ask for me
So then she wont peek its really you my part-time lover

We are undercover passion on the run
Chasing love up against the sun
We are strangers by day, lovers by night
Knowing its so wrong, but feeling so right
(repeat)

Ive got something that I must tell
Last night someone rang our doorbell
And it was not you my part-time lover
And then a man called our exchange
But didnt want to leave his name
I guess that two can play the game
Of part-time lovers
You and me, part-time lovers
But, she and he, part-time lovers




(Mr Linky has been giving me problem. Hence I've decided to strip it completely)
So if you would like to join in the fun, leave a comment with your Song Sharing Sunday post's URL and don't forget to grab the meme's badge above using the codes provided and I'll hop over to 'listen'...